Weekend Update

As a stylist, I knew going into the world of hair that my weekends wouldn't be the typical Saturday and Sunday. My weekends are Sunday and Monday. I love that I don't have the usual resentment most people feel about Mondays. Saturdays are different. While I am working away, I get so jealous of the posts on my newsfeed of people out enjoying their families, shopping, etc. I accepted that I would be dealing with that 8 years ago when I started cosmetology school. For the most part I really enjoy my weekends. I'm sure as the boys get older and are involved in activities that take place on Saturdays I will feel differently but for now I like to relax while everyone else is stressing about Mondays.

So Monday, Cory and I were both off work and totally NOT feeling the whole "eating good" thing. So we loaded up the boys and went to Cracker Barrel where we ate our weight in country fried everything. It was amazing. Lunch was a "snack" of McDonalds and dinner was Chick-fil-A complete with a cookies and cream milkshake. By bedtime, I felt like I had been hit by a truck. I felt terrible. It's amazing how quickly your body gets used to "real food". So even though there are days that I crave to eat every fast food place out of business, I love the feeling that I got last night. That feeling that I can't wait to eat my salad and stay UNDER my calories.  Although I still haven't exercised, mentally I am feeling pretty good with where my motivation is. Today I am feeling patient.

Sick

So this week has been exhausting. The nasty cold has invaded my household. The babies are sick, they got us sick, and now we are all miserable. The funny thing about babies being sick is that they NEED sleep but they don't WANT to sleep. Therefore, although mommy and daddy need sleep they don't get any sleep.

 

They may not feel good but they sure are still cute.

 

Going home right now is a lot of work. From the moment I walk through the door till I lay down in bed I am going non stop. This is always the case even when the babies are not sick. Come home, watch boys till Cory gets home, cook dinner, bath time, bed time for the boys, dishes, and bed. When the babies are sick, all of those things still have to be done. The difference is that they are fussy and require a lot more attention and holding. My mom has been our saving grace this week. She has stayed with me until Cory gets home and introduced us all to essential oils which have helped a lot.

 

Needless to say, my goal of exercising three times this week has not happened. Although I have been  sticking to my calories for the most part, I am not able to put much brain power into what I am eating. Which I guess is ok as long as I am sticking to my calories.  Such is the life of a mom I am learning.

 

 



Who are you???

My name is Krystal. I am 25 years old. Wife to a wonderful husband, Cory. Mommy to 8 1/2 month old twin boys, Matthew and Malcolm. I work in the hair industry with a group of women that I absolutely adore. I am blessed beyond words to have the family that I have and the people in my life that make everyday worth living.

My hubby!

Matthew on the left, Malcolm on the right

(Yes we make beautiful babies, no I am not humble about this at all)

I am also very overweight. Like REALLY overweight.

 I would like to think that this is something that I don't allow to define me but it does. I have struggled with my weight for pretty much as long as I can remember. Up until the last year or so I have always viewed my issues with my weight as personal issues. Now that my two precious little men have stormed into my life, that has changed. I want to be healthy for them. I want to pick their beautiful, chunky butts up and not have to put them down because I am too out of shape to hold them for long. I want to live to see them graduate, to see them get married, to meet my grandchildren, and hopefully one day my great grandchildren.

My list of reasons why I want/ NEED to loose weight goes on and on. However, up until this point in my life, my list of why I can't/won't/don't freaking want to is obviously longer than my list of reasons and desires to JUST DO IT!

Loosing weight for me is not an option for myself anymore. I don't desire to be a size four. I desire to better myself for my family and the benefits that come along with that will only encourage me to keep going until I get to where I am HEALTHY.

SO here is the plan:
I am using My Fitness Pal to count calories. I am not happy with the amount of calories I am given when I am honest about my activity level. There is a reason I am the size that I am. I LOVE FOOD! So to eat (within reason) what I want I am exercising several days a week. No exercise, no extra calories. This is going to be a very long journey, if I'm being honest it already has been. I love the feature on MFP that allows your friends to see what you have eaten. That accountability has prevented me from many Snickers. Like every damn day. The purpose of this blog is to up that accountability. Even if no one ever reads it. I am putting my plan on the internet. And they can't put anything on the internet that's not true. (haha) But seriously....

So welcome to my journey. If anyone is even out there. Hello? (*echo echo echo*)

1st goal: Exercise 3 X/ week